What If….

So I was thinking what if I have only today to live!! Yeah, call me crazy… But these days I don’t know what to think of! i have a lot to think about.. but this is everywhere on every social media platform and over all televisions. Okay maybe it’s your time to leave this earth and join the Lord.

I know I have gone to the extreme! But that’s my greatest fear! What if I’m gone before accomplishing what I want to do. What if there’s this whole life ahead of me I won’t see! You want to know my goals… Forget sleeping in bed of roses… Or traveling the world. Okay I still want all those things! But what if my life ends unexpectedly! Will I rest in peace? But do people rest in peace? When they don’t want to die yet! yeah, there are those you want to die (read rest). I remember I paid a visit to my friend’s Dad in Mulago, he had cancer and he told us he wanted to rest. I believed him. I have never seen anyone in pain like this man! I’m sure he is resting in peace now. But someone who tries to fight for their life and science fails! Or it’s their time to leave Earth. As the Reverend is saying rest in peace. Do they even hear? Do they really want that! This will be a discussion for another day…

Trust me I have thought a lot during this Quarantine! What if you are tested positive? Have you thought about that? i think about this every day. Okay before Covid-19 was confirmed in any African country I was on a dose of flue and cough! When they talked about the symptoms (In Bobi Wine’s voice) I was scared! But I had simply talked to my Cousin who is in New York! Was that contact? He was scared for Uganda! He asked me to be praying it doesn’t reach here… But anyway, maybe somehow I didn’t take it serious or it was already here… But I prayed about it. Anyway, did I? Maybe I needed to pray harder!

What if I had prayed harder! Would it save us? What if Churches forgot their differences and focus on God. What if opposition leaders cam to power? Okay what if they all voted one opposition leader to lead? What if we didn’t have enemies or selfish humans? What if the Government allowed whoever to just hold their campaigns in peace? What if Prophets and Pastors and their followers/believers don’t try so hard to hate on each other? Would we be free of the virus? What if the 1st person who was infected was treated and got well!!! Many what ifs!!! But it’s what it is.

What if I had carried my sewing machine and some materials home and be working. What if I had listened to my Brother, but I feared to even step on the veranda that the President permitted us to sit on now! Ya! That’s the fear of Covid-19!! Now we are on forced leave! Which is a good thing now that I have to wake up, write my blog in peace. okay, i also sleep and wake up late without feeling guilty.

What if this is the new normal! You wake up, pray. Get on social media see new cases coming up. Maybe someone you know is infected! Writing this made me tear down!!! I don’t want to think about this. It’s the reality we need to face though. You cook and eat! Thats if that day you have what to cook! Try to see who is hiring! But shops are closing everyday! You can’t even access anything to help you fix the boredom! What if we will be bored all through! What if? Jesus!!! Will we go back to normal? What if 2020 was our year! Will it still be our year? In Christ, sure it will!!!

However what if this is just a session that will pass! This gives me courage and hope that it will also end without claiming our lives. And if it does… We will leave people who will talk about it. That Covid-19 infected most people in the world and Uganda was among those countries!

So during this time of #Lockdown show your gratitude for the imperfections that you have, the love that you don’t deserve. If need be; be kind to a stranger or neighbor please do. Do something that many people can benefit from, create whatever you can and keep or start loving your family and friends, check on them this can make a small difference in a very unique way. Embrace this reality that we all still have each other. Do your best to give back to life. Do something – anything. Cook that recipe you saw on the internet! Okay blame my love for cooking…

And when we are no longer here. Someone will say, they tried to live right. Yeah! Am that scared! Maybe after many days and years I will look up for this blog and say yeah! I wrote what I felt at a moment.

The Bible tells us that God’s ways aren’t our ways. His timing is different too. Just because things aren’t working out like we expected doesn’t mean we’re a failure or that it’s the end. So let’s leave the What if moment, if you are still breathing, God’s not done with you. Your life has purpose and meaning.

Remember that; “The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.” Call on Him now. Now is the time.

So as I end here, what ever the the What if is… The regrets and circumstances you are dealing with today either alone or with someone, Take a moment to really appreciate the gift of life. Applaud. Keep the hope, love and courage. Stay safe.💜

TUHAME ❤️