My Confessions

Let my confession begin! What are confessions anyway? I believe these are statements that’s reflect one’s principles or the intimate personal revelations by acknowledgement. The sun that gives hope. Time is 6:24Am. As in it’s lockdown! Am awake already! How? Okay Day 4: here are my three confessions.

I can‘t Fake it
This is where i would start with my line, “everyone who knows me knows that I can’t Fake if I like anyone or anything else!” Yah! I’m so bad at “faking it”. When am sad, you will know! When am happy you will still know. My friends say that there’s a way i walk that tells them if I’m happy or not! I know that’s weird! Generally am a jolly girl. 😉 So my smile is known to many, if there is no smile… She ain’t Happy! I have always tried to fake a smile. But my eyes give me up! I’m so bad at feigning interest; and this you will know when my interest bar is at 2%! When am annoyed, you’re going to know it. Mum is a Pro in this; she normally tells if I have eaten or not by the sound of my laughter! I don’t know how she knows that!
The bottom line is that when you see me smile, laugh, or even show interest in anything it’s genuine! Am that simple!

Repeated stories!
Somehow I have a lot of stories about my friends and my family and of course myself and the ones that are always in my head…
So somehow I happen to tell a story twice okay more than twice! And mostly the opening line is always, just like my Og! My OB told me… My friend…
I frequently forget that I told someone something and repeat stories! Somehow I edit some parts out so that the story doesn’t look so mean or so plain!!!…. Drives my siblings crazy! That everytime am to start a story they all look at each and say, “was that your OB or your OG!!! And this drives me insane!!!!
I always want to respond to stories when someone is sharing with me their own stories. However it seems people think I am upping them when really want to create connections with my own experiences or my friends’! Yeah! Someone did this same thing to me and it was annoying!!! It’s me telling the story! Don’t bring in yourself!!!

Miss Analyst!
I have always caught myself analyze every thought every detail of a text that I received, everything. Anything anyone says, or any look they give me, is a message! I just have to figure out how to get over this! I don’t know if it’s self-esteem! Or insecurity! Even after a conversation, I think of how best I should have acted! The words that I should have used! And after all that practice! I tell myself really? The event is gone!!! Actress! Get back to looking for money already!!! And for some reason I find myself finishing people’s sentences in my head and I accidentally cut them off in the middle of their sentences! Yeah, Analyst she knows it’s rude! So don’t be offended! I don’t know why I overthink, but somehow when I overthink something I want to find a solution it causes stress, lack of control that I end up wanting to find out really soon. And Miss Analyst turns into an FBI agent!! I think I have watched all of movies and now I think am a champion! Okay my point is…. I want to stop this but it has helped me make one of biggest decisions this year. So let me hold on.

All these are just things that I need to put out here so that if you have been offended by them… My intensions are always clear. The girl wants to protect herself from the world. Or maybe to just protect your feelings… (What does that even mean!)!

TUHAME ❤️